Nipple Locks and Sex from Behind

I had a bunch of sex dreams last night and I have to tell you, they were really wierd. The first one was something like a guy was fucking me in my ass for a while and then something changed and I had a strapon and was fucking him in his ass. I'm sure there's some kind of psychological significance to this kind of turnabout. What's your interpretation of that? I have to admit I've been fucked in my ass by plenty of guys and I've done a good bit of it with a strap on for both girls and guys, but I've never had a situation in which they person fucking my ass turned around in the same session and I started doing them. I wonder what that's all about huh? So I hope to hear your thoughts on what that means.

I know it seems like I remember a lot of my dreams and that's because I do. From back when I was in high school I learned that most people have 4-5 dreams a night on average and you can train yourself to wake up after each dream and if you write down a couple of keywords about the dream, you can remember it. I've been doing something like that for years and while I'm at a point where sometimes I don't write anything down, I still have much better recollection of my dreams than I think most people do.

So later in the night I had another sex dream. This one I was staying at a really nice hotel and I had a suite room and I went to another room where a friend who I had a bit of sexual interest in was staying and the maid was cleaning his room even though he was in there and I was amazed because the maid had been leaving him just tons of snacks, juices, sodas and stuff. I was like, hey, how come I'm not getting all this stuff in my room! Anyway, I went back to my room and there was a really cute blonde naked girl on the floor who apparently had been just sitting there for the past couple of days and I just never noticed her. I think she was from Europe and she said she was just hanging out. My guy friend came in the room and asked about the girl but she stood up and said it was time for her to go get breakfast. Wierd huh? Then I noticed another naked girl on the bed and she was laying on her back and was stretched out. She had a huge tattoo that covered up her entire front and her nipples were pierced with huge rings through them and a chain connecting them with small luggage sized locks that locked the chain to her nipple rings. She got up and followed her friend out the door to go get breakfast.

So anyway, my friend came up to me by the bed and we started kissing and rubbing and he stripped me and turned me so he was behind me and I was standing up facing the bed with my hands on it and I was bent over to expose my pussy and ass. He got naked and had a hardon with a HUGE cock. I reached back and felt it and I was scared he might try to put it in my ass because is it was so big, but my pussy was dripping and so he put it in there and started pumping away at me from behind. Then I looked over and one of the hotel maids came in the door. I was like "don't you knock?" and she said the door was open. I was thinking that the two girls who just left must not have closed it completely. Then another maid came in but it wasn't enough to make me want to stop having sex and my friend kept pumping away at me from behind. Finally a bunch of guys who were hotel maintenance workers came in and that was pretty much it. They guy had enough and I wasn't in the mood anymore so I covered up and complained and said they shouldn't be there and they said they had to be because they had work to do. This one hotel maintenance guy was huge. Like 6'5 or taller and was a really big guy with a cigarette and I said I was going to call the manager because this just wasn't right. He said to me to go ahead because he was friends with her. I picked up the phone to call down but for some reason the phone didn't work. That's where I woke up. So what does that dream mean? Seriously, I want to know your interpretations of this stuff? Was it just a hot sex dream? Something telling me I need to be fucked from behind or did it have to do with having an audience or punker girls with nipple locks or what?

I woke up naturally playing with myself though, I always seem to play with myself in bed though usually its a harmless kind of rubbing and touching that is more habit than anything although it does feel very good. I was wet though but then again, I'm wet most of the time and even when I'm not, its very quick and easy to get me wet. I guess I'm just lucky that way. Anyway, I love sex dreams even when they're a little wierd but I can't always figure out what they mean so I'm looking forward to hearing what you think about it. Don't be afraid to share your thoughts okey?

When is it too Much Information?

You know I asked a while ago if there was such a thing as giving out too much information. You know, where I say stuff and everyone kind of goes, ewww, I wish you hadn't shared that. There were a lot of things I was sharing and sometimes I wasn't sure if it was over the line or not, for example I you might recall that I wasn't sure how much everyone would like to hear details of when I have sex with men. Of course beng bi sexual, I'm not limited to just women and I like to have a nice hard cock in my holes sometimes as well. As it turned out, everyone was fine with hearing about that either because it was a turn on to hear about my sexual fun whether it was with a man or woman or because some people could picture that they were the guy putting his hard cock in my juicy wet pussy or tight ass or having my moist little mouth sucking on it while my soft pink tongue licks gently leaving a glistening trail of my saliva. Oops, did I get off the subject for a minute? Sorry about that.

Anyway, back to the subject at hand, when is it just way more information than you wanted to know? In my last post I talked about the fact that I had gotten a little sick. I didn't go into a lot of detail though I mentioned a little bit of a runny nose and stuff and while you're probably used to hearing about liquids running out of my body on a regular basis, its usually pussy juice or sometimes pee because of course I like pee play too. A while ago I also did a post about menstruation because I wasn't sure if that was too much information or how people would take the idea of me discussing it, but again, everyone seemed fine with the idea since it is a perfectly natural and normal thing but of course not everyone likes the idea of it and I've still refrained from going into too much detail about visits from my Aunt Flo.

So that brings up the question at least in my mind of whether or not a runny nose is too much information. Okey, I get it no one wants to be around sick people, especially me, and there's really nothing sexy about a sick person and yet, I'm not sure that its any better or worse than talking about my period in extreme and exacting detail. The only person who left a comment said something about diarrhea and since I'm not a poo kind of girl, that was a bad mental image for me, but otherwise I was a little surprised that no one even wrote a note to say they hoped I felt better. I do feel better now though at least physically but I said that I was pretty much better anyway at the end of my posting. I'm back to fucking and sucking and being chained up like a sex animal in heat so in other words, things are back to normal but still, I have to wonder if you guys just got really freaked out or tuned out because it wasn't a post about bondage or sex. Hey, I warned you that not all my posts were about fetish and fucking and stuff. Sure, my webcage is mostly about that stuff but its also a lot about me and since I am a real person and not just some character in a porn video, things happen that I want to share that aren't always about sex. Granted, most of my life does revolve around sex because my pussy pretty much makes all my decisions, but that's not the point.

Anyway, so I'll probably get back to talking more about sex and bondage and being dressed up as a fetish fuck toy now that I'm feeling better but it would really be nice to know what you guys think too okey? And if I hit a point where you feel it is a little too much information, just let me know because I'm not always sure where the line is because it keeps moving. It's very hard to keep up with!

Sick!

A few months ago I was bragging that I almost never get sick. This is actually pretty true and while I get a little coughing, sore throat or the sniffles once or twice a year for a few days, I haven't been really sick in years of the kind where you just want to stay in bed.

My success streak is still alive although for the last few days I have been battling some minor cold symptoms. They're all related too so its really not a big deal. I had a runny nose which of course led to a slightly sore throat which later started me with a little coughing. Notice I'm really downplaying the whole thing because its really not a big deal. I took a little something to dry up the nose and the sore throat pretty much went away and life wasn't too bad.

I think I know exactly how I got sick too. See, I'm usually really careful about things. I'm not a Howard Hughes germophobe or anything but I do wash my hands regularly when I'm out in public because germs can live even on a doorknob or other surface for 2-3 days after a sick person touches them. Plus when I see a sick person I try not to get too close. I hate doing that because I don't want for my actions to be interpreted as cold or distant or whatever but its just how it goes. If you're sick and you see me and you notice I'm standing far away and I keep backing up as you get closer, don't take it personally. It's probably not your breath or body odor (though I have been known to back up over those things as well). So it was last Wednesday and I met up with some people and there was this one guy, we'll call him Kyle, which may or may not be his real name, I'll never tell. Now Kyle is usually a pretty cool guy, kind of a semi-serious professional who could also pass for a Pearl Jam grunge movement reject in his spare time. So you can see why I would hang out with him. Now before you start thinking that the minute I see anyone I instantly strip off my clothes and start jumping on cocks, hey I do have some self control. Besides, I knew him because his girlfriend is one of my friends so we were just all hanging out. Fun huh?

Okey so the problem was we're out for a drink on Wednesday of last week and he's acting like an asshole. I think I even asked him at one point "hey Kyle, why are you acting like such a fucking asshole". I didn't actually say the word "fucking" but I added it in here for maximum effect. It's what I would have said at the time if I were wittier than I really am. Anyway, he was complaining the whole time about having a headache and not feeling well and that was his excuse for just sitting there, not saying much and acting generally like an asshole. So for the evening I pretty much ignored him because if he felt that bad he shouldn't have been out anyway and besides, I figured he just wanted to be left alone so interaction was probably annoying to him anyway. Okey, so here's the mistake I made. Even though I didn't know the exact details of how he felt bad, I knew that in some way he wasn't feeling well. Yet when we all were saying goodbye to go our seperate ways, I let the guy hug me. Seriously. Can you believe that I let this guy who was complaining about not feeling well hug me? Well if that's unbelievable how about this? He kissed my cheek Oh my god! I let Mr. Sickie hug me, breathe all over me and then plant his germs all over my face. My god what was I thinking!

See, it was only in retrospect though that I figured all of this out. If nothing had happened to me I wouldn't have given it a second thought but of course by Thursday night I was already starting to sniffle and by Friday morning my throat was feeling a little sore. Naturally I started loading up on the meds because I was hoping I'd be okey for the big latex/rubber party on Saturday which I already told you about. I did feel better but going was probably not the smartest thing either because between the cigarette smoke (which I can't stand even on a good day) irritating my throat and eyes and the energetic release of dancing and having fun while dressed in fetish plus add to that contact with all of those people while my immune system was already weak plus the effects of medication on me and I think it was just too much. Sunday was not a good day for my body at all! At least I had a good time though but it definately set back my recovery by several days.

At this point I'm still on the meds though things are looking better. My runny nose (I know how sexy that must sound. Ugh!) is not so runny and I'm feeling better. I went to exercise today as usual and felt pretty good generally. So I think I'm pulling out of this thing and hopefully I won't have to put up with this crap again for a long time. Of course next time someone wants to hug or kiss me, I'm not taking any chances. If I've heard even one health related complaint within 24 hours, forget it. I'm backing up and I don't care how cold or distant that makes me look.

Maliia in the Land of Giraffes

Sometimes its good to be small and cute. It's great for sex because one of my favorite positions is to stradle a guy facing him while he's standing up and I get to ride his cock like that. Because I'm so small, it doesn't take a particularly large or strong guy to be able to hold me up like that and even though I orgasm very easily, this way is probably the easiest. I definately get the deepest penetration while having good control and its kind of kinky to be bounced up and down on a cock like that. It really makes a huge difference in what I feel. The other nice thing about being so small of course is that a lot of people think of me as a toy or a doll and they want to dress me up as their fetish slut or use me as an object or sex toy which is cool too. Not all the advantages to being small are restricted to sex either. When I fly on an airplane, legroom is rarely an issue for me so I generally don't feel too cramped in the coach section though I can definately see how anyone who isn't as small as me both in terms of height and weight might have a problem.

Of course there's also a downside to being small and short too. The first is that everyone thinks that because I'm small, I'm also weak and I can't take care of myself. This of course is total crap, I'm not only pretty strong but I'm a tough girl. What happens though is that either people step in to stand up for me thinking that I can't stand up for myself, or as is especially the case with girls when the get catty, they think they can intimidate me or that it will be easy to kick my ass just because they tower over me by at least half a foot. What they don't know is that I've been doing kickboxing for years (it's a great way to stay in shape) and although I don't like to fight if I can avoid it, if I have to defend myself I'm very capable doing so. Hey, when you're a small girl like me, you have to learn how to protect yourself right?

There's another downside too which is if I go anywhere that requires me to see anything whether its a movie, concert or whatever, chances are I'll only get to see a small part of the thing if any of it because most people are a lot taller than me. A couple nights ago was a great example of what I'm talking about. I went to a fetish friendly club and they had a whole big latex/rubber night thing so naturally I put on my skin tight red patent leather dress with fishnets and 7" platform knee high boots(and of course my puppygirl collar, we can't forget that) and went out. I know what you're thinking that 7" heels are huge and you're right, they are but because the platform was 3", I could still walk in them. Seriously, these are easily my highest shoes and I wore them specifically because not only did I think they were super fetish and cool but I knew there would be cool stuff to see and I wanted to be a little taller so I could see it. Besides, needless to say the least I was dressed like a complete fuck me whore who would drop her panties and bend over for a good screw up my pussy or ass at the drop of a hat, which was definately the look I was going for!

So you would think that wearing these super high heel platforms would have put me on even footing as it were with the other girls in the club right? Finally Maliia gets to see the crowd just like everyone else. I thought so too except one thing I should have counted on because I've definately been to enough of these things to know better but for some reason my brain was switched to the off position, or maybe I just had fetish on the brain and my pussy had taken over all decision making processes for the body, was that all the other, taller girls would be wearing shoes that are just as high if not higher.

See, this is where the problem comes in. So I was probably 5'10" in my heels. That's pretty hot but along come all these girls, and I mean like half the club which had hundreds of people, it was totally packed, and they're naturally like 5'8" - 5'11" and they're wearing heels and platforms that run 6" - 9". With their heels they were still towering over me in the mid 6 foot range. I'm not sure if me wearing my heels was a waste or not because on the one hand it didn't do any good and I still couldn't see anything which was too bad because they had some incredible bdsm demonstrations and some terrific latex/rubber fashion shows. On the other hand, if I hadn't worn my super platform heels and went with a more normal 4" heel instead, I wouldn't have fit in as well as a total fetish slut that I am and besides, I would have been even lower which means my head would have come up to nipple level instead of upper neck level. Hey, it's something right? It wasn't just the heels though, some of these girls had on these really wild fetish wigs and stuff that stuck up another foot or so. So much for getting to see anything except the crowd around me.

At least I didn't have to totally strain my neck by looking up to talk to people though. Just a slight look up but not as bad as it would have been otherwise. Besides, this isn't exactly the kind of place you can have a good conversation anyway. Very loud and I think half the people were probably high on something anyway. You go and dance or look or hang out or whatever. Not a whole lot of actual bdsm play really but a great place to show off and check out what other people are doing and wearing. There definately were a ton of incredible outfits and I saw more than a few that I wouldn't mind having wrapped around my tight little brown body.

Despite still being short and small, I did have a great time though. I went with one of my Thai friends and we met up with a Mistress friend and some of her friends so we had a great time. At one point my Mistress friend took pity on me and had her male slave put me on his shoulders for a while. That was during one of the fetish fashion shows so it was great for me and since I wasn't wearing any panties and my pussy was rubbing against the back of his neck, I have a feeling it was good for him too. I just wonder if he noticed any of my pussy juice dripping down on his skin or not. That seems to happen to me a lot. You wouldn't think such a small girl like me would be able to produce such a large amount of pussy juice but I do. I guess that goes to show that just because the packaging is small that doesn't mean the surprise inside isn't really huge huh?

Where to Go for Fetish Fun

You know I get asked a lot of questions about the bondage scene here in Los Angeles and a lot of other times people ask me about the fetish bdsm scene in whatever city or town they're in. I really only know about the fetish scene in a few cities and even that information might be a little outdated and you know how things change, but I thought I would just go ahead and share what I know with you and really this might be an interesting topic for my forum section and if you think so let me know and I'll create a catagory for it or something so that if you want to talk about the fetish scene in your city or you're curious about it in whatever city you plan to go to, then hopefully either you'll be helping people out or other people will want to help you out by telling you about it. That makes sense right?

So first I'll start with Hawaii because that's where I grew up and everything. There really isn't much of a public scene in Hawaii to be honest and it's practically non-existent on Maui where I grew up. 90% of the population of Hawaii lives on Oahu so if there's going to be anything more public going on, that's probably where it will be. Things come and go though and there used to be a great little fetish store on Kapiolani that always had all the information but they closed which kind of sucks and there also used to be some great fetish/techno/goth parties down by the airport as well but I'm pretty sure they don't do those anymore. Really those parties were about 90% people who liked to play naughty dressup but didn't really know much beyond that, but there were people there who were really into things. Of course most of the purpose of it was just to dance or whatever, not really have a bdsm scene or anything and I'm not sure you'd really want to do that there anyway. It was more of a thing to see and be seen wearing things your mother would certainly never approve of.

Los Angeles I think is one of the better cities for bondage because its a large population that is very kinky and open minded. So there's a lot going on which is nice. First, there are some great shops you can go to, mostly in West Hollywood, for equipment and outfits and stuff. If you ever want to buy me an outfit, Dream Dresser on Santa Monica is definately the place to go. I love their stuff. Pleasure Chest has been around forever and I call it the Macy's of adult stores. It's almost just like going to a department store in terms of how comfortable it is and you just go browse and enjoy. It's not like a sleazy porno store at all but something a lot more fun. I definately suggest checking it out. There's also a place called the Stockroom which is mostly catalog stuff but if you call ahead and are really cute and nice like me, they might just let you in to some secret shopping. There's lots of other good places to buy bondage equipment, furniture and of course naughty fetish attire too, but these I think are some of the main ones. The other nice thing about fetish stores is if you're not sure about the public bdsm scene, they can be a great place to start because you can find out about parties, clubs, organizations and other things that are going on either by looking at flyers or talking to the people who work there.

Okey, so there are also a lot of fetish friendly clubs. These change a lot and sometimes new ones pop up or close and sometimes they change their themes so they become more or less fetish like. I used to like this cool club called Club Fuck on Melrose a long time ago and then it closed but the same people popped up at a club called Vice later on which became very fetish like for a while but then that kind of dropped out later. One of the longer running fetish friendly clubs was Sin-A-Matic on Santa Monica in West Hollywood (see, all the naughty stuff happens in West Hollywood). I'm pretty sure that one is dead though, at least it was last time I checked but something else may have popped up in its place. I heard there's another fetish friendly thing at the same location on Sundays now but I'm not sure. This might not be much help but you can always check in the LA Weekly as well because that newspaper tends to have a lot of great listings of clubs and events and sometimes they'll have a lead for fetish related events. There's also the adult newspapers you see around sometimes and while most of the stuff in them tends to be ads for porn shops, massage services and escorts, you do sometimes find ads for sexual or fetish friendly clubs and parties as well.

Finally for Los Angeles we get to organizations that are helpful. One of the biggest ones here is called Threshold. I've been a member of it for a long time and while I'm not super active with it right now, its a great place to meet people, learn more about bdsm and enjoy some cool parties. They tend to have parties about once a quarter and sometimes they're really good too. They also have lots of workshops and other educational things and its a nice place to meet other people who are into bdsm. I will say that as with anything there are some people who I thought were pretty wierd and some I thought were pretty cool and I guess that's just how these things go.

There are also a number of dungeons and professionals of course here in Los Angeles but they're not too hard to find.

Okey, I could go into detail about other cities like San Francisco and New York because I've played a little in both but I don't know the scene super well. I do know a little about Atlanta because I went there a couple of times and besides, I was really surprised because I didn't think a city like that would have a good scene but it does. There's a fetish friendly club that used to be called the Chamber but now its called the Jungle and they do a fetish theme night I think every Friday. I actually got an email about a thing this Saturday there called the Buckle Ball which sounded pretty cool so if you live in the South, it might be a fun thing to do. There's also a great dungeon called 1763 and there are organizations like one for people under 40 called Whippersnappers that holds monthly play parties at that same dungeon. There's a bunch of other clubs and organizations but I think it would be better for someone more familiar with the bdsm scene in Atlanta to go into more detail on that.

Anyway, that's what I know about bdsm scenes so I'm glad I got to share that with you. If you think that starting a thread in the forum about this would be a good idea just let me know. I think it would be very helpful you know? Also, if you have anything to contribute, add or correct, that would be cool too.

So, I will be going to a fetish party tommorow night I think so that should be fun and if anything particularly exciting happens of course I'll be sure to share all of the dirty naughty details so you can know just what your slutty little slant eyed whore did and why she needs for her tight brown body to be punished for it.

Fetish Fun in Changing Seasons

I was just told today that tommorow is officially the first day of autumn. In a lot of the U.S. and even other parts of the world too I guess that's a big deal because it means the weather is changing and the leaves are falling off the trees and it will soon be time to stop wearing tiny little crop tops and mini-skirts and start bundling up in sweaters and coats and hats. Of course I really don't know that much about such things because I've never actually lived anyplace that had a change of seasons like that. Growing up in Hawaii it was pretty much the same all of the time. In the winter it was maybe 5 degrees cooler than in the summer. Not exactly a big difference huh? Even here in Los Angeles sure the weather does change a little but not enough to really worry about. It does cool down a little and as we get into winter it will start raining more and it definately gets cooler at night, but its really not such a big deal. I have visited some cold places before though and it was really cold. I couldn't feel my face.

So you're probably thinking to yourself that when Maliia starts talking about weather she seriously must not have anything better to talk about. Well, that might be true but I actually do have a point here kind of. See, I love to wear skimpy little fetish outfits, leather, latex and other fun stuff. Wearing fetish outfits though is a tricky thing because the weather has to cooperate. See, if it's too hot like the middle of the summer, you don't want to go put on a rubber outfit because its just too damn hot. Okey, some of you might put it on either because you love rubber that much or because the anguish of suffering in the heat of it is part of your experience, but that's just not my thing. Sure, I love how my tight little brown body looks in it but I don't want to broil while I'm wearing it. That's just not cool.

The nice thing about warm weather is that I can show off my little body and wear really skimpy tight little things that barely cover what has to be covered in order for me not to get thrown in prison (which might not be such a bad fantasy anyway. Lots of bondage, some nice lesbian rape scenes, maybe even a forced gangbang by the male guards. See, there's potential there). Then we go to the other weather extreme which is in the middle of winter when its cold in a lot of cities you can't really wear skimpy stuff but you can wear full on rubber and latex attire and not only are you warm but you look really fantastic too.

Los Angeles is kind of a wierd thing because it just doesn't get that cold so it actually works out perfectly. It's cool enough that I could wear more and heavier rubber or latex without totally suffocating but its not so cold that I can't still show off a little skin if I want to. See, it really is a great place!

The other nice thing about going into autumn though is that there's a lot more fetish and bondage events going on. See, during the summer, not only is it really hot but a lot of people go on vacation so you go to these parties (I go to a lot of course) and like half the people you know aren't there. As we get into fall though, everyone is hanging out and so its totally cool.

So I'm going to go to a fetish theme party on Saturday which will be fun. I was trying to figure out what to wear and I concluded that I didn't have anything to wear and my friend told me that was just a typical female answer, especially given how much fetish stuff I have. Another friend who is a Mistress just didn't have the patience for it and just told me to wear a tight shiny pvc dress with heels and that would be fine. See, the nice thing about having a Mistress to control you is that you don't have to worry about making these kinds of decisions. I can become a total fetish slut Barbie doll. You just dress me up anyway you want, take me out and show me off. I love that. Anyway, whether its getting cooler where you are or not, I hope its giving you more opportunities to have lots of fetish fun too.

Take Me to the Bondage Casino!

I got back from a weekend in Las Vegas last night. I know some of you who live in Las Vegas and have been begging me to go and dress up as a latex whore on a leash while exposing my little brown bondage body are probably a little dissapointed that I didn't give you a call so I could fulfill all of your naughty fetish desires or at least see them acted out by me. Well, sorry about that! Certainly that could be fun though, I thought of that when I was there and how fun it would be to be led around the casino on a leash while wearing a short little skirt that rode up over my ass, exposing me totally. That's hot huh?

Anyway, the trip was like seriously last minute. I had no idea I was even going until Saturday morning when one of my friends who is like a super huge gambler type called up and asked me if I wanted to go. Hey, I can't turn down an invite like that right? Besides, when he goes, he gambles big time so the casino sent a plane for him and gave us a 2 bedroom suite (yes I did get my own room and before you start thinking that this was some ploy for him to wine and dine me so he could fuck me, forget about it. He's seriously gay and his boyfriend came along too). I told you I like hanging out with gay guys sometimes and I have a lot of gay friends. They're very funny but sometimes they can get a little catty too with each other, a lot more than other girls I think but of course the difference is that since I'm a girl, I get to observe the action without having to play a role in it. Don't get me wrong, I am a whore, I get that and I have no problem spreading my legs to expose my cute little pierced and bald pussy or my tight little ass for a nice fucking. The difference of course is that I do it for my own pleasure because I'm such a sex crazed little nympho and although the right motivation is always nice, it doesn't have to be material.

So the thing is, I'm not much of a gambler type at all. I know how to play some of the games okey but I just don't get a lot of pleasure from the "excitement of gambling". My pleasure of course comes from the excitement of sex, fetish and bondage, but you already knew that right? See, I'm not bad at blackjack, so I played that for a little while and I did pretty well at it which was nice. The problem I have is that when I'm winning I want to quit so that I can keep some of what I won, and when I'm losing I want to quit so that I don't make things worse. See, that's definately the opposite of the gambler's mentality. When I was sitting there playing though I got hit on like at least every three minutes. Ordinarily I don't mind getting hit on though frankly it depends on my mood and what I'm doing and in this case I was trying to focus. Hey, I may not be into the whole gambling part but remember what I said a couple of months ago, I hate to lose. It totally drives me crazy so for me the appeal of playing wasn't so much winning the money, it was just to win really. I wasn't even playing with my own money anyway so that part wasn't as important. It's kind of hard to concentrate and focus on winning when you get interupted every three minutes you know?

So I also tried playing a few other games there but I didn't like them as much. Craps was very fast and confusing for me so I mostly stuck with simple bets and half the time I wasn't even sure I was doing that right. I think that could be a fun game if you really get to know and understand it though. I also played a little roulette but my problem with that was there's just no skill at all. At least with Blackjack you have to figure out a piece of it and decide which way to go. Roulette on the other hand is just throwing your money down and hoping it all works out. Kind of like taking a commercial air flight!

The game I'm actually pretty good at but didn't get a chance to play was Texas Hold'em poker. You know, its very popular now and I had a friend teach it to me a couple of years ago. I play for fun online sometimes when I'm bored and I'm not bad. I never did get the chance though. Oh well, maybe next time. I had a great time though, we saw a show, had a great dinner, I went to the spa naturally and had a nice massage and did a little swim. You know, that's my thing is just to relax, have fun and if I get to show off my tight little brown body then that's even better.

I know some of you are worried about me and wondering when I'm going to get to be in bondage again because it seems like the last time with someone else was a while ago. It does seem that way doesn't it. You know, its true that my life isn't 24/7 bondage and sometimes I go for longer without it and sometimes I have more sex or less or whatever. I think it kind of works out in phases but that's okey for me because it makes it even more exciting when it happens you know? But not to worry because this week I have lots of catching up to do. I'm playing with a Mistress friend today, doing some fetish shopping with another fetish friend later in the week and we'll not only try things on with each other but we'll try things out too of course and there's a big fetish theme party on Friday so that could be fun too. See, my problem isn't that I'm not having a lot of sex, its that no matter how much sex or bondage or whatever I have, its never enough. Maybe I have a sex addiction huh? We'll I can live with that, it's kind of fun actually and for me its probably a lot more fun than a gambling addiction anyway. Now all we need is a casino like in some of the stories on my website where instead of gambling for money you're gambling for sex or fetish or something then that's a casino I would definately go to. Seriously, that would be really hot with people who could bet and win slaves and sexual acts. Of course I would probably gamble myself into permanent slavery, but maybe that would be on purpose anyway.

I Love to See Myself in Bondage or Having Sex

There really were a lot of great comments about my last post so I wanted to thank everyone who shared their thoughts because I really liked reading them. I especially liked some of the ideas on what I should do and I thought the one about me being chained up with a ring gag so I drool all over my naked body was a great one. I also agreed totally with the comment that I should have a mirror in front of myself so I can watch the way my body looks like that.

That particular idea really hit me very hard because I love to see myself in bondage. I guess that's why I love to do the photos and videos and stuff so much is because I can go back and look at my body and for the record, I do get off on looking at myself. See, it's not just other people who are getting horny looking at my little brown body, I do it too! I love to see myself in bondage or forced to do lesbian or whatever. I look beautiful in a ponygirl bridle and bit and I like the way I look in a dog collar too. So that suggestion really hit the mark because if I'm sitting their chained up, drooling through my ring gag and collared and leashed, I can feel everything but I don't get a sense of the whole visual picture in terms of how others see me. I only see pieces of it you know? But if you stick a mirror in front of me, well then I can see everything that everyone else can so I know how exposed I am or how humiliating things look for me and that's very hot.

Its not just bondage either by the way. I've always loved sex in front of a mirror. In my old place my closet doors had big mirrors on them and whenever I had sex in my bed I could look over to that side of the room and see myself. It was very hot. I especially liked it when I was being done doggy style and I was on all fours and I could see everything and it was almost like watching a porn movie except it was real time and I could feel everything that was going on. Very hot. So whether I was being fucked in my pussy or ass or whatever, I could really get even hotter about it because of the visual stimulation that went along with the rest of it.

You know, sex is a very sensory experience and I think the more senses you can get involved in the thing, the better. I like all of it, the smells, tastes, how things feel, the sounds, especially verbal humiliations and reminders of what a little brown whore I am and of course, why not throw the visual in there too.

I'm still making lots of decisions with my pussy though. I'm definately like a guy in that I think of sex all the time and if my pussy likes an idea, I tend to go with it whether its a good idea or not. I've made some bad decisions because of that in the past but my pussy is just so cute that I can't stay mad at it for too long. Hey, it's hard being a horny little three hole slut toy who lives to be fucked anywhere. See, of course I'm still picky and careful and everything else but I'm definately one of those "loose" women that your mother probably warned you about. I don't mind though. Some girls get upset when they're called a slut just for doing what guys do all the time. Me? I embrace my sluttiness! It's a part of who I am and I enjoy it. Of course when I get to watch myself being a slut whore, especially in bondage, well that just makes it even better.

I Need More Orgasms to Think Clearly!

I'm back again and its nice to be home. You know its always fun to go other places but then its nice to be home and sleep in your own bed and stuff. I had a nice trip though and went back to Maui to see my family and help take care of somethings because of a death in my family. It's not a fun thing I think but I guess it has to happen to everyone huh?

Still, I got to see my mom and my little sister Analei and everyone else. I have a lot of brothers and sisters and most of them are a lot older than I am. Because of everything that was going on, I didn't really have a lot of time to go surfing or anything. That was kind of dissapointing but I did get in a good day on Sunday.

The other issue I'm dealing with is that I've gone for over a week without sex and very little masturbation. Between being really busy with everything and of course being with my family and stuff, it really doesn't give a lot of opportunity. I got so desperate a few days ago that I went in the bathroom and masturbated until orgasm. At that point it felt almost medically necessary. I needed it so badly that I couldn't think straight so I had to do something to get it out just enough so I could continue for a while.

I got back to my place yesterday though and after unpacking the first thing I did was pull out a dog collar, leash and vibrator and I watched a little bondage porn while making myself cum. It's kind of like when you're really thirsty and then you have a sip of water and its the best water you've ever had, well even though this wasn't anything special, just me on the sofa in a dog collar, playing with myself, I had really strong, powerful orgasms. See, that's what denial will do to you. I thought I was going to pass out after the first one hit. That's pretty strong for me!

So no more orgasm denial for me for a while. For the next few weeks anyway, I'm going on a strict diet of heavy bondage, extreme masturbation, using my mouth on any beautiful pussy I can find and getting fucked in any of my holes that will fit a cock. Hey, a girl has to be satisfied right? Anyway, trying to be normal for the last few days really has pent up a lot in me. It's definately time to get back to being the filthy little bondage whore that I am.

Not Posting Updates While I'm in Hawaii

Hi Everyone,

Well I wanted to let you know that I'm going back to Hawaii for the next week or so because of a death in my family so I won't be able to update my blog again until around the 14th or so. I didn't want for you to think that I forgot about this or was slacking off and being lazy or anything. It's a sad thing you know but it will be nice to go back to my hale and see my ohana. Anyway, so I hope you stay naughty and as always if you have any thoughts or ideas or whatever, don't be shy about posting them in my forum section or sharing your comments with me or whatever. Otherwise I should be back to posting again next week when I get back okey? Thanks!

luv,
maliia

Sex Dreams and Television

It's funny how what you do during the day can affect your dreams isn't it? First, I had trouble falling asleep last night. I don't know why but I tossed and turned a bit before finally drifting off an hour later. I hate when that happens. Isn't always nice to just close your eyes and BANG! Youre' just out right? Of course when I'm trying to fall asleep I almost always have my hand on my pussy in some way. Hey, I can't help it. Part of it is because of course it just feels really good and part is that I've just gotten used to falling asleep while I'm touching and playing a little with my pussy. It's not a bad thing you know!

So before bed last night I watched an episode of Malcom in the Middle on tv. I don't watch a lot of television but I didn't go out last night because I was really busy with some other things and that's just how things go sometimes. I did have dinner with a friend though and we hung out and watched a DVD at home and then she left. So its true, I slept alone and didn't get fucked and as always, I sleep naked (unless it's my time of the month but we've already gotten past that for this month).

I had a lot of really wierd dreams that I can't quite tell you about but they were really annoying ones where you're trying to do things repetatively but it just isn't working out. Those are a pain. Then I had a sex dream as well. Generally I love sex dreams and more than a few times I've woken up with a dripping pussy and felt the need to "finish myself off". Hey, a girl has to do what a girl has to do right? And if there's not a hard cock or cute little pussy sleeping next to you at the time, what's a girl to do?

I'm going off the track as usual I know, but the point is that I had this sex dream in which I was getting fucked by this guy on the bottom bed of a bunk bed. We had to be really quiet because on the top bunk and on another bed across the room were a couple of teenagers who were sleeping and we didn't want to wake them up. The teenagers it happened were a couple of the kids from the television show. See, I bet you were wondering how all of that was going to fit in!

I'm trying to be quiet and I can see one of these kids looking at me while I'm getting fucked and I'm all sweaty and stuff and the guy who plays the oldest brother comes in and asks when its going to be his turn. The guy who's fucking me said something like "you don't get a turn" to which he got all pouty and was like "that's not fair!". So the guy who was doing me went back to fucking me so I'm on my back with my legs up so my feet are by my head which really exposes my pussy and feels very good because the cock gets what feels like deeper penetration there (hey, I'm a pretty flexible girl in more ways than one!) and the guy came. Now usually when a guy cums that's the end of it. Also, they don't usually cum in my pussy, they usually pull out so the whole cumming in my pussy thing I'm not sure what that means, but anyway, this guy turned me on my side and just kept going. I'm like, I thought you were done and he said no, he thought he could cum one more time. I thought we girls were the only ones with multiple orgasms but here's a guy who can shoot and just keep going. Now if only I can find a guy like that in real life, I'll be set. No wonder it was a dream. Anyway, I'm off to go surfing. Have a great holiday weekend!