Celebrate Freedom Day by Being Free!

Its nice to know that so many people still want to fuck me even when its my monthly time. You know, there was one comment someone made and I hadn't thought of it that way but its absolutely true. Why do guys feel so embarassed to buy tampons or pads for their girlfriends or wives. It's not like the cashier is going to think its for the guy, they know what's going on. You know, come on people!

I was also told that I start too many sentences with the word anyway. The ironic thing about the comment was that the guy then went on to start the next two paragraphs with the word "anyway". Maybe he was just emphasizing a point.

So I hope you are excited and ready for a fun holiday weekend. I always like holiday weekends but I really don't have a lot of plans. I will probably go to a friend's beach house and hang out. Maybe do some surfing as usual and of course see fireworks which I always love. I almost never do political or opinion commentary but I thought that given the holiday coming up, I would just say I was glad to see the flag burning law fail. My first reaction was that maybe the congress people should be working on things like crime, education, poverty, terrorism and my neighbor who feels the need to rev up his Harley at two in the morning before getting into some of the lesser issues. My other thought was that sure, I like the flag, its a pretty flag with lots of neat colors, but I'm not sure that a colorful piece of cloth that was most likely made in China is more important than the idea that the symbol represents. So sure, you can destroy the symbol, that's fine but you can't destroy the idea of freedom just by doing that. If anything, doing so makes the idea even stronger. So I thought the flag can either be a symbol of freedom or a symbol of governmental restriction which to me is kind of the opposite of freedom. Or maybe I'm just thinking too much and should go back to being a mindless bondage slave. That's always fun too.

The truth is that like most people, I have uninformed and poorly thought out opinons on many issues, but since opinions are like assholes, everyone has one, and most people probably came here for the bondage and sex, not the Fox News Channel talking head commentary, I do try to limit that. Given the holiday though I thought it would be a good thing to just throw out there.

So hopefully you'll have a fun holiday filled with barbeques and fireworks and maybe even some naughty fun. I was thinking of naughty things I could do that would be in the holiday theme, but the idea of painting my body green and being the statue of liberty for a day did have limited appeal for me. I know this post today is kind of rambling and all over the place but these things happen sometimes. You just have to go with it. Anyway, have a great holiday weekend and have fun and be safe and don't do stupid things like drinking and driving or forgetting to say "thank you Mistress" when you're allowed to lick clean a nice pair of platform stiletto shoes.

Riding the White Pony

I was frankly a little surprised that my sex dream that I shared didn't get more comments or attention. I would have thought that a bad little slant eyed bitch like me having such naughty thoughts would have made some of you want to share your response to it. Guess not.

I'm going to tell you something that most women don't share in public and that most men seem to never want to hear about. I'm having my period now. Yes, it's true, I'm riding the white pony. This really shouldn't be a surprise to anyone. After all, I am a healthy young woman and as you might expect, this happens regularly about every 28 days or so.

Still, a lot of guys seem turned off by this. They know its coming. If you have a girlfriend or wife, its pretty much a given that you're going to have to deal with it. Consider yourself lucky if she doesn't have you going to the store to buy supplies for her. Then you have to figure out tampons or pads, heavy flow or low flow and don't even get me started on pads with the wings.

I have to wonder if the biggest concern guys have about this whole issue is what's commonly referred to as PMS. Some girls do get seriously bitchy, its true, others not so much. I'm not really a PMS kind of girl. Rarely do my emotions get out of hand and I generally am pretty happy even when I'm going through it. I think the exercise helps. Sure, a few days before Aunt Flow comes to visit my boobs get sensitive and swollen (which you would think is a good thing given how small my boobs are in the first place) and I feel a little uncomfortable but its not too bad and if it does get to be a pain a couple of Advil do the trick pretty nicely.

So here's where the problem comes in. Most guys that I know of (and certainly girls) consider your amusement park to be closed for maintenance during this time. I guess its the whole blood thing that can be a turn off. I get that. I guess its a cruel joke of nature then that about halfway through my period I start to get horny like you won't believe. I mean I'm always horny, you know that, but this is like uber horny. I'm practically ready to strip down and run down the street rubbing myself against light poles. Nature is oh so cruel, isn't it?

Of course being the girl that I am, I know about all kinds of fetishes and yes there are people out there who enjoy a little "ketchup on the steak". I'm a pretty open minded girl, yes I like to show off my pee and do all kinds of other things, and even though I know I could probably meet some of these fetish people who see a code red as a good thing, I myself still have some mental issues about it. Its not that I think that sex during this time is gross or anything, I'd definately enjoy it, its more a self confidence issue, that I guess I would feel less beautiful because of it. Besides, as much as I don't mind the idea of being fucked while I'm painting the town red, getting oral sex during that time as pleasurable for me as it is, still has some reservations for me. As wild and naughty as I am, I know I wouldn't want to do that to another girl during her time. Would I want to be with the guy or girl who would do that for me? I guess its definately good but also bad at the same time, and it definately would be a solution to being super horny with only myself to satisfy things. Its usually during this time that my wildest fantasies start to look like really good ideas. Things like gangbangs, extreme piercings and other things. I have a feeling that one of these days, I'll get over my time and run out and not stop myself from finishing my transition to "complete and total whore".

There's probably a lot more that I could say on this subject but I think I've babbled on enough for now and besides, I'm starting to run out of menstruation euphamisms anyway. Next time I think of something clever to say about my period though, I'll be sure to share it with you, I know how you're probably sitting on the edge of your seat waiting with unbridled anticipation for the latest update on my monthly flow.

So maybe you're one of these people who gets the shivers just thinking about a girl and her time or maybe you're one of the rare few who gets turned on by it. Either way, I'd love to hear what your thoughts and experiences are with it.

I'm a Bad Little Brown Bitch

I had another dream last night. This time it wasn't a lava dream so if the Hawaiian fire goddess Pele is trying to tell me something, she's taking a night off to go party. Given the amount of stuff people leave for her, I'm not surprised. Anyway, this one was more of a sex dream. I was in a house and my little sister Analei came in with a cart full of stuff because she and my mom just got back from the Sam's Club (which is weird because there isn't a Sam's Club on Maui (though I think there's one on Oahu which makes sense since 90% of Hawaii's population is on Oahu, right?) Before you start thinking dirty, no Analei isn't a part of the sex part of the dream, what's with you guys? No, there was this guy who I don't know who that was and also a couple as well. Maybe the couple were tourists, they definately looked like they were from the mainland, blonde hair and stuff. So they were talking and said that the blonde guy was submissive and the woman was his wife who was really cute and dominant.

The guy who I don't know came up to me and said "you're a bad little bitch aren't you?". I resisted a bit and he pulled up my skirt exposing my ass (its true, I rarely wear panties) and started spanking me. He told me to count the spanks and say that I'm a bad little bitch with each one. I didn't do it so he spanked really hard, I mean it stung a lot! Finally I started counting and saying that I'm a bad little bitch and he did that a few times. Then he asked me if I was a cocksucking whore. I said yes but he wanted me to repeat it. So I had to say "I'm a cocksucking whore". But he wanted me to say it louder and louder and to scream it but I was worried my family would hear it so he spanked me more until I was screaming that "I'm a cocksucking whore, I want a cock in my mouth so badly, please let me suck on cocks like the bad little whore I am".

He seemed satisfied with that and then went to the blonde girl and grabbed her by her neck and asked if she was a cocksucking whore too. She resisted and said that she was a Mistress and he couldn't treat her like that. He put a collar around her neck with a leash and handcuffed her and forced her on her knees. He asked her again if she was a cocksucking whore but she wouldn't answer so he said to her husband "that slanty eyed brown bitch over there is a cocksucking whore, she can't get enough of it, she likes cocks any hole she can get them in and will fuck anything that moves. Is this little blonde bitch like that oriental fucktoy over there?" The husband didn't answer either so the guy said "look, does this little slut like to suck your cock or not?" The husband kind of meekly said yes and so the guy looked at the blonde girl and said "well that makes you a cocksucking whore, doesn't it?" and the girl finally said "yes". He pulled out one of her tits (definately a boob job) and grabbed a nipple and pinched hard and and told her to say it, so she said "I'm a cocksucking whore, I'm like the slanty eyed brown bitch, I love cocks".

So that's pretty much where I woke up. Needless to say, it was a pretty fun dream for the most part and yes my pussy was dripping wet when I woke up (big surprise there right?) so naturally I played with myself for a little while before drifting off to sleep again. Dreams are wierd things though aren't they? They go from one place to another and one subject to another like fluid.

You're probably wondering how the heck I can remember such detail in my dreams. A lot of people don't remember any dreams or aren't even aware of having dreams except once in a great while. I love my dreams, good and bad they are always interesting and sometimes I learn from them or figure things out. Sometimes my dreams are premonitions (that's happened quite a few times) and sometimes they're just really interesting stories (much more exciting than anything on TV). So there's the deal. The average person has about 4-5 dreams a night. Its true. The problem is that most people don't remember any of them. Personally I'm lucky if I can remember one or two. So you're probably wondering how I remember them. Well, back when I was just a horny little teenager in school I learned that you can control yourself to wake up after each dream. It takes practice but you can program yourself to do it. Then after you wake up, if you keep a pad and pen by the bed, you write down a few keywords about your dream. It doesn't have to be a lot, just the keywords will bring back most of the rest of it. If you don't write it down thinking you'll remember, forget it, you won't. I've done this for a long time and I've gotten to where I wake up naturally after several dreams and I don't really write things down anymore because I am able now to remember my keywords. I don't wake up after every dream, but maybe once or twice a night. I especially like it when I wake up after an exciting dream or definately a sex dream. That's the nice thing about sex dreams, they can go anywhere and do anything. Nothing is out of the question. There are no limits and it can be totally dangerous, taboo and wrong and the feelings, emotions and responses are totally real but yet, there's no real danger. I love that.

Anyway, so that was my sex dream for last night. If I have any other really interesting or exciting or sexy dreams in the future (and I'm sure I will), I'll be sure to share them with you if you're interested. Otherwise if you have something interesting, why don't you share it here or at the forum section.

Hawaiian Goddesses are Talking to Me Again

I sometimes get feedback from two kinds of people. Those who say what they think I might want to hear and those who say their opinion, good or bad, without regard for whether or not you're going to like it. Obviously if the opinion is unsolicited then it can often be unwelcome, after all, opinions are like assholes, everyone has one. Still, if you asked for an opinion and someone gives it to you, then its always good to keep it in mind. I'm not saying that one person's opinion is necessarily right or wrong, just something to consider.

A good example is my little web log here. I know I can get a little wordy and babbly sometimes and it seems like I have trouble getting to the point and being as succinct as possible. I get that. Still, a lot of people said they liked reading my thoughts and enjoyed them and were okey with the format and the writing style. So naturally that made me feel good and I'm willing to assume that they told me their honest opinion because that's how they really felt. What I thought was odd though was no one was particularly critical of what I was doing. I think a lot of people maybe don't like giving or especially receiving critisism, but I'm trying to be one of those people who sees it as an opportunity to improve. So with that in mind, I finally got a very short an succinct note (I guess to emphasize the point) that said "Your posts are too long. Be clear and succinct. Humble suggestion". It was nice and respectful and I'm not saying the person is right or wrong, after all, maybe that person doesn't like reading long posts, but maybe most other people do. See, even though I like for everyone to have a good time and enjoy themselves, I have to go with what is going to work best for most people as it relates to what works best for me. Does that make any sense or am I babbling again?

Anyway, last night I had a lava dream. I have these sometimes and usually its lava flowing here or there and doing its thing. Some people might be afraid of lava or even see a lava dream as a bad thing but I've always welcomed them because it reminds me of my home in Hawaii. Granted there's no live flows on Maui (though lots of fun volcanic stuff to play with and if you go to the top of Haleakala, its like another planet) but I've spent enough time around the flows from Kilauea for them to feel like a part of what constitutes home for me. Besides, the flows are really a part of Hawaiian culture anyway. I've always kind of seen it as Pele (the goddess, not the soccer player) telling me that I've been away too long and its time to come back for a visit. You know its very important to give Pele good respect too. A nice gift for her goes a long way. Many people leave alcohol around the flows but my family always went for food figuring that if she's drinking that much, she should probably eat something too. So we would leave pipikaula which is kind of like beef jerky, Manapua which is like a bun filled with barbeque and so ono (delicious) and some other treats too. Sound wierd? Well we all have our little cultural things I guess.

Anyway, so the point was just that I had the dream and while its not as exciting for you maybe as one of my sex dreams, which I always look forward to and even though I'm convinced that I have those once a night too (because my mind is always on sex, awake or asleep) I don't always remember the dreams which is too bad. I just love it though when I wake up and a sex dream, especially a bondage sex dream, is still fresh in my head and I start to play with myself and I make myself cum just laying there in bed. It can be interesting if there's someone else in bed with me though and they get confused about what I'm doing, but hey, there's enough of me to go around, no problem right?

Maliia's Bubble Bath Adventures

So it sounded like the conclusion was that although I do a form of porn and although I am the star of that porn, I'm not really a pornstar in the generally thought of sense because I've pretty much limited what I do to my website which although it gets lots of visitors, I guess is kind of a limited field. I have gotten lots of offers though to do other bondage video projects and a lot of offers for more mainstream porn but as I've said before, I don't want my sucking and fucking to become my job, I do that for fun! I think the bottom line for me is that whether or not its true doesn't really matter anyway, being called that is very naughty for me (and therefore a turn on) and I think its a nice flattering compliment too so that's nice.

I had a nice relaxing weekend and I didn't end up going out to that fetish club. My friends who were supposed to go with me got flaky and I ended up doing something else which was fun but not very fetishy. You know, sometimes a girl just needs to be chained up like an animal is all. Isn't that normal?

I did go out to a little farm about an hour outside of Los Angeles though. I had a great time and we rode horses (the real kind, not ponygirls which is too bad because ponygirls would have been even more fun), went swimming and got to breathe fresher air which is kind of a strange thing after you get used to air in Los Angeles. Though to be honest, I think air in Santa Monica is about as good as it gets for the L.A. area because the ocean breeze usually pushes all the bad air inland towards downtown and East Los Angeles. I'm such a snob, aren't I?

You know its funny how you can totally be in great physical shape (and I think I am) and still when you do things you don't normally do, you get sore muscles because those particular ones don't get as much attention usually. That happened to me, I think from riding the horse. My legs were really sore when I woke up on Sunday. Usually I only get that way after being fucked with my legs in the air for too long. See, I just had to say that. But anyway, for me the solution was to have a nice long hot bubble bath. I know its like a total cliche chick thing, but seriously, I LOVE bubble baths, they're totally relaxing and nice. I fill up the tub with nice warm water, put in some aromatherapy bubble stuff that I got at the Body Shop I think and some bath salts are nice too. I have a ton of candles and I like to turn on some nice soft music, usually Hawaiian style is good for me because it reminds me of home, and then I just soak my naked little body in the tub and its very good for me and I like to drink some wine while I'm at it too. Seriously, does that not sound like the total chick cliche or what? I have a little tub pillow and I have fallen asleep in the tub doing that. Usually though I'll just float around and my skin gets very soft and slick from the soap and its pretty normal that at some point I'll start playing with myself. By the time I get out, sure I'm a little pruny, who wouldn't be, but very relaxed.

I also like bubble baths with other people too. That can be very erotic and exciting for me. A couple of bodies sliding around in the slippery bubbles and soap is a total turn on. Of course one issue is that its kind of hard to have sex in the bubble bath. I've done that a lot and you have to go slow and be careful because if you go too fast, the water will spill out of the tub and make a huge mess which is a pain to deal with of course. If I'm with a guy in the tub, I think its easier for me to be on top because I can control things better that way. With a girl its not as much of a problem and to be honest, its not often that I'm in the bubble bath alone. A lot of the time its with another girl but you know, I like to let a guy in my bath too sometimes. This Sunday was just a rare alone day for me but that was okey too. Am I the only one who is into this? Maybe you have things you like to do to relax or get turned on or whatever too.

Am I a Pornstar or Just a Bondage Schoolgirl?

Thanks for all the great feedback on my spam issue. I know its something that affects everyone but I was suprised I guess that such a non-sexual, unexciting and frankly somewhat annoying issue would generate far more response than any of the hot fetish topics I've discussed. Weird huh?

So I'm still fighting the spam but I got an email today from someone who was excited that a famous pornstar like me would respond to their original note. Its certainly not the first time I've been called a pornstar (though I don't hear famous very often) but it still took me by surprise because I don't think of myself as a pornstar, I'm pretty sure that I'm not very famous and although I have gone to parties or events and hung out with the people who are more considered to be "famous porntstars", I really don't do that very often.

I guess the word famous is relative. Even though a lot of people come to my little webcage so I guess a lot of people know about me, its not like I'm Jenna Jameson or Tera Patrick or anything. I do get a lot of offers to do photo and video shoots but so far FHM and Maxim haven't called to offer me a cover shot and the E! channel hasn't done any stories on me. I guess in my mind that's what famous is, where you're like a brand that pretty much anyone who has any interest in porn at all will know about. I don't think I'm there yet, my pond is a lot smaller. I think a lot of people who are online and have an interest in extreme bondage and fetish MAY have heard of me. That's not quite famous as far as I'm concerned.

Then of course there's the pornstar part. That's a little trickier because to the extent that I do bondage and lesbian in photos and videos, I guess I can't deny that I am in porn. It's true. Does that make me a star though? Well I had to think about this and I guess since I am the focus or star of the photos and videos that I'm in and the other girls are my supporting cast, I guess I am a pornstar in a way, but just a little one. I think if you use a very broad definition that is in which a pornstar can be anyone who is in porn and takes a leading role in the process, then okey, I'll take it. I always think of most pornstars as being girls who will suck cock or be fucked or do anal or whatever on film or in photos. I actually have no problem with doing those things and honestly I love to do them a lot but I just don't talk about it very much here which is another subject that I'll probably discuss another time. But anyway, here my focus is pretty much exclusively lesbian and definately bondage themed. I mean I love sex and all but I don't want for it to be my job. On the other hand, bondage is so fun for me that I don't mind doing it for photo or video because even though it can take a long time to get a shoot done, I just feel so turned on anyway. You know, it never turns into a job, does that make sense?

I think I'm kind of babbling all over the place here, but the point is just that while I had never thought of myself as a pornstar despite hearing it many times before and knowing what I do here fits into that catagory, still I was very flattered upon hearing it because the title is kind of sexy and naughty but still fun. Maybe I should clarify though by saying I'm an online bondage pornstar. That could work too.

I was going to go to a party tonight at a fetish friendly club but now I'm not sure because the friend I was going to go with is backing out on me so either I need to find other friends to go with or I won't go (I don't want to go alone you know for a lot of reasons). I was pretty excited though because I was going to go as a naughty schoolgirl. Seriously, I got a new schoolgirl outfit with a little skirt that barely covers my ass, a tight white crop top that shows off my belly and gives me great cleavage despite my small boobs, white fishnets and of course black platform stilettos. I thought about wearing a dog or other collar with it too (or maybe picking up a cute little pink collar) just as a reminder that I'm not just a schoolgirl but a bondage schoolgirl. I usually don't wear panties when I can avoid it, but this being a club and not a party coupled with the fact that this skirt is SO short that my ass and pussy WILL be on display (which could be exciting except there are certain legal issues given the venue) that I may have to resort to putting on a white g-string. Anyway, does that sound delicious? I think so too. Hopefully I'll get a chance to do that but if not, there will always be another chance for me to be a naughty and horny little schoolgirl for you.

I Must be the New Spam Princess!

Today instead of going surfing as I usually would I decided to go play tennis with a friend instead. I'm not a terrible tennis player but I'm not particularly great either. I'm very competative though and I hate losing. I'm not a sore loser or anything, I just hate when it happens. Today I got my ass kicked totally. I'm not sure if its because I played worse than usual or my friend played better or some combination, but seriously, it was embarassing how badly I did. Still, I had a great time, but it would have been better if I was winning instead.

So after I was done with that I came home and took a shower (yes I soaped up my little tits and hairless little pussy along with the rest of me) and then it was time to finish going through my email. Once again I finally got through the email that was waiting for me. I tend to go through phases in which I really stay on top of it and other times when I get busy and I get behind. The funny thing is, I really LOVE to get email from people, especially when they share their kinky naughty ideas or fantasies or just want to share their thoughts with me . Seriously, I totally love that stuff.

The problem for me though sometimes is dealing with all the spam I get. I think everyone gets a lot of spam, but it seems as though I get more than usual. Don't believe me? I'm averaging over 2000 spam mails a week. While my spam mail filter helps weed out most of the bad stuff, a few dozen still seem to slip through each day and sometimes I'll get legitimate emails that have a subject that looks like spam and sometimes legitimate emails don't even make it that far because the spam filter throws them in the pile with the other 2000 and if you think I'm going to go scrolling through 2000 spam emails to find out if one or two might be real, well I don't think that's going to happen. So if you didn't get a response from me, this is probably what happened. If you make sure you put my name in the subject or say something about bondage or whatever, I'll pay more attention to it than if you leave the subject blank or something.

I've said before I guess people must be buying stuff from the spam, otherwise it wouldn't make sense to keep sending it. Of course the trick most of the spam seems to use now is to put spaces or punctuation in words so the filters can't catch them, but most of the filters are up on that anyway. For example, today's spam pile includes old favorites about refinancing, bad credit, fake rolexes, free I-pods, free giftcards, and of course hot anime adult action. Nothing except the last one interested me at all and frankly I wouldn't have had any interest in the anime unless of course it was of the bondage variety anyway. Of course you already knew that because I have a pretty good bondage anime collection at my webcage so that's always exciting. Still as fun as bondage cartoons are (because you can have any fantasy apply with no limits) I still like the real thing better.

Anyway, I want to hear what you think, share your comments or thoughts about this subject or any of the others I've written about, I love to get feedback but even more, I love to hear what you have to say about things.

Maliia the Mistress, Slave and Whore

I ended up going to the bondage party last night. There really weren't very many people there so that was kind of dissapointing. Last time I went there was a good crowd though it still wasn't as many people as I like to see, but last night was even less, maybe only 60 or 70 people came. It didn't really matter because I still had a lot of fun and I think the quality of the people who did show up was much better than usual. What I mean by that is there are a number of different kinds of people who come to these kinds of parties. There are people like me who are fairly young and good looking and often very nice, guys and girls. There are people who are very nice of course but physically they may have some issues like weight or whatever. Then there are the people who are really super into things and either they do the 24/7 kind of thing with strict protocols (some of them are cool but some bug the crap out of me because they think their way is the only way to be a sub or a dom/me or whatever). Some of those people though are very very talented. There was a guy whipping a girl to the beat of his mix CD and he just had the beat totally perfect. Of course I see him at all kinds of events and clearly he's been in the scene for many years. Another group you see are just really odd people. I try not to judge them, sometimes they are nice but sometimes they can be kind of creepy and too wierd for my taste. Finally there is the single guy. There were more of these than usual last night. These are guys, and you may be one of them, who go to the parties by themselves and just kind of walk around and watch and see but they never really seem to participate at all. Maybe its because they don't know anyone or maybe they're shy and don't want to start up a conversation or maybe they're new and so it takes time to get to know people of course before they'll want to play. I have no doubt that its easier for a single girl to play than a single guy, but still there were some guys I know at this thing who come by themselves but they never have trouble finding play. I think because they aren't afraid to talk to people and make friends and after a while it doesn't matter that they're a single guy because you get to know them and they're cool.

Last night is a good example of this. There's this one guy who I've gotten to know over the past several months who goes to the parties by himself. A couple of months ago I used him as furniture and I think he liked it. I was just feeling particularly dominant at the time and I knew him from talking at several parties so I thought why not. See, if he just creeped around not saying anything or introducing himself, I never would have talked to him and never would have done anything. Last night I was hanging out with a Mistress friend of mine and her husband who wasn't feeling too well (he's a submissive of course) and this other guy was hanging out with us too which was cool. So the Mistress decided to do a little scene with him and she invited me to come help out but only as a domme. I was feeling more sub. but I wasn't doing anything anyway so I thought why not. Besides, maybe if I did a good job she would play with me.

So she collared him and put him on a leash and of course put cuffs on his wrists and ankles and I walked him around the room a little on his leash just to show him off a little. Then we brought him back to a padded horse and locked him down on it. She got on his back and started paddling him and I was whipping him between her paddles. Every once in a while she would stop to rub his ass and make nice and I would walk around to where his head was. I was wearing my cute pvc black knee high boots which are VERY lickable (I think because they're so smooth and shiny) so naturally I would have him lick my boots, including the heel of course. That's a very important part. I was also wearing just the cutest little pvc dress that barely covered my ass and of course I had a nice little black dog collar on (I'm a cute little puppy, I know). Then she would go back to paddling him and I would go back to whipping him for a while and then after a while we let him go and finished things up. Naturally he kissed our shoes (as a good little slave should) to thank us. He really is a very good submissive and just as some of the dominants are very good at what they do from experience and you can just sit there and watch in awe at the way they work, there are also some submissives too who are so very good at it that its very exciting either to watch them or even better to dominate them.

We all took a break and a little later I came up to him and we were looking through his bag of stuff that he brought and another guy who I know came up and we all started talking. He saw a cute leash and was playing around and clipped it to the ring on my collar and led me around the room. There was another guy who is just average looking but a nice guy. I've seen him at many of the parties and he likes to cross dress sometimes. He was being very conservative last night though and was only wearing a pair of knee high stilettos but he was complaining that they hurt his feet too much. I said to him, "welcome to the world of being a girl", we have to put up with that all the time! Though frankly most of my boots and shoes are actually pretty comfortable for me, its just when I get into heels that are really high on me that it can get uncomfortable after a while. Anyway, that's off the subject though because he said to the dominant who was holding my leash that as cute as I looked like that, it was a shame that my arms were free and maybe he should cuff them behind my back. The first submissive guy (the one I dominated with my Mistress friend before) spoke up and said that he had just the thing and he pulled out a black leather arm binder. Really beautiful too. So he and the dominant who was holding my leash pulled my arms behind me and strapped them together, pulled the straps so the criss crossed across my chest and locked me into the armbinder. Then the dominant guy grabbed my leash and took me around the room again which was a lot of fun.

My Mistress friend (who is very cute and the same size as me so we tend to trade fetish clothes sometimes) was talking to a guy who had a very cute naked girl with a great body in a posture collar on a leash and the dominant who was leading me pulled me over to my Mistress friend. I heard him say to her "does this animal belong to you? I found her wandering around by herself and I think she was about to get into trouble". That was very hot and I felt the kinds of tingles inside of me that usually happen right before my pussy starts dripping. That was also exciting because as I've said, my pussy drips a lot so it can sometimes run down my legs and I don't wear underwear and this dress was super short so I figured it was only a matter of time before I was extra humiliated by people seeing my juices and knowing how turned on I was.

Anyway, she was so cute and she took the leash from the dominant guy and put her finger under my chin to lift my head and asked me if I had been naughty. Naturally I had to say "yes Mistress, your little animal on a leash has been naughty". She finished up her conversation and then led me over to one of the smaller rooms where she clipped the O ring on the bottom of the armbinder to a chain hanging from the ceiling and raised it up until my arms were painfully raised and I had to struggle to keep my balance. Then she lifted the bottom of my dress which as I said before barely covered my ass anyway and she started slapping the inside of my thighs which if that wasn't enough of a hint that I should spread my legs wider, she then verbally commanded it. She ran her hand between my legs which totally made me start to shake and she felt around my dripping pussy for what was not nearly long enough before presenting two glistening wet fingers in front of my face. "Clean" was all she said so naturally I opened my mouth and she inserted her fingers. I closed my lips over them and moved my head back and forth over them like I was sucking a cock. Naturally she noticed this and commented on what a good little cocksucker I would be. She then spanked and slapped my ass while teasing my pussy. She took a soft flogger and worked on my ass and lower legs a bit. It wasn't really painful which was the idea (I'm not really into pain) but sometimes one of the tails of the flogger would sneak up between my legs and hit my pussy in a way that gave me a little jolt.

After she was done she rubbed my body and licked my ear a little. We french kissed some and I was especially horny and humiliated because although there weren't very many people at the party, I did have a good crowd enjoying the spectacle of my vulnerable humiliation. Finally she unchained me and released me from the armbinder so that it and the leash could be returned to their rightful owner. She and I ended up going back to her place where we had some more bondage fun and a lot more sexual fun (there were limits about what you could do at the party like no oral sex or pee play or insertion or anything like that so obviously there was a lot more fun to be had in private), but of course what happened after the party is a totally different and much longer story. The point though was that I had a great time at the party and it wasn't so much about my moods because I was Mistress, slave and whore all in one night!

Webcage Updates and Financial Markets

Although I hoped to get more feedback and comments from my last web log entry (because I love feedback and comments) I have to say that the quality of the comments that I did get were really great. Maybe I should write ridiculously long web log entries more often huh? I do have a ton of things I've been wanting to talk about though, some of which I mentioned before that were suggested and other things are just stuff I think I'd like to share and hopefully you'll enjoy reading about. Or maybe not.

I do tend to babble a lot though when I write these things or especially if I write something on a message board. I don't do too much on sex or fetish oriented message boards except for my own really, but I am sometimes kind of active of some of the financial message boards like at Investors Business Daily and Richdad, etc. I guess its kind of wierd to you that I would be into that, but I'm just totally fascinated by the financial markets and how things work and I've studied it so much and read so much that I'm actually starting to feel as though I know a couple of things. I know this isn't nearly as much fun or interesting to most people as when I talk about sex or fetish or whatever, but oddly, for me I get a similar feeling of curiosity and satisfaction from it. The reason I post to those message boards though is because there's a lot of bullshit out there. Tons actually coming from every direction like the TV, newspapers and of course message boards are notorious for manipulation. So I try to share some of what I've learned in more general terms in the hopes that maybe some people who might be a little confused about things can have a good starting point to not be so easily taken in as a sucker. I have the obvious feeling that most people who are reading this are more interested in my fetish fun than my financial market interest, but since its a part of me I thought I would share a little and if you guys have an interest in knowing more then just tell me okey because I am happy to share but only if I think people want to listen.

Anyway, I got an email a few days ago from someone who was asking about the stories and when some of them would be updated. Sometimes I have blonde moments even though I obviously have black hair. I guess the brain sometimes shuts off or I get busy or whatever and I kind of let things go. He had some really nice things to say about the stories section though and thought that it was one the best collections of original and extreme fetish stories around, so that made me feel good of course. The thing was, I had some additional parts to the stories he really liked but just hadn't added them and I had some other stories that had been redone or some that were new too so I finally got off my lazy butt (or if you prefer, I finally wriggled out of the chains that were holding me captive) and updated some things in that area. I posted what I changed in the forum section too, but in case you didn't see that, here are the new things:

1. Out of the Frying Pan - This is a very cool story that I like a lot and I added the final couple of parts. I think you'll be really surprised because it has a great twist ending to it and of course its a very hot story.

2. Slavery of Michele - Some new parts were added to this one. It seems as though the author intends to keep going with it but she hasn't written anything new for a while so we'll see what happens. In the meantime at least these parts will be new for you.

3. Part Time - A great Thndrshark story that he not only completely redid to make it even more exciting but there's also a new final part 3 to it that is as long as the first two parts combined. I loved the way it went and I think its a great story, again with a really cool twist ending. I love it when a story is not only extremely erotic and sexy, but also interesting and fun to read at the same time.

4. Holly the Puppygirl - The author of this story sent it to me and its a very cool story about a 15 year old girl who is kidnapped, trained and transformed into a cute little pet bitch on a leash. I think you'll really like it and the author has promised that there will be more to come in the future. I'm also hoping he'll share some more of his fetish stories too.

5. Japanese Pee Slut - The title kind of says it all doesn't it? It's about a Japanese girl who loves pee play and also is into other girls. Not really a bondage story (though I think there is some bondage in it) but mostly a pee fetish story. So if you like pee play and cute Asian girls, this might be a great story for you.

6. S&M Fashion Show - Something about this story really was great for me. Its about a hot guy and cute girl who are browsing in a fetish store and end up getting blackmailed into becoming fetish fashion show sex slaves. I thought the author did a great job of creating a very easy and exciting mental image and it definately got me wet so I hope it has good affects on you too.

As usual I also updated the featured story and photo. I think everyone knows where the links are for those but if not its on the right hand side of my blog section on the main page of my webcage. I try to update it whenever possible but sometimes I get ditzy and forget. Of course you already know that the video clips and video galleries are updated everyday and you can enjoy live text chat or live video chat anytime you want.

Okey, so that's enough about all the work I put into things lately and I do hope you enjoy it and of course if you have any suggestions or thoughts you can always go to the suggestions section of my forum area and let me know okey?

I haven't really been doing anything exciting this week apart from the updates and my exercise, surfing and doing the other things I do usually. Tommorow night is another bondage party at the same place I told you about last time (I said it was about once a month and its been a month). I'm not sure if I'm going to go or not because I may have committed myself to go out with some other friends but I'm going to see what happens. If I can go then great, that's always fun but if not then I'm sure I'll catch it or another party or fun thing another time. That's the thing about these events, there's always another one to enjoy.

How I Got Into Bondage and Became a Sub Switch

There were some good ideas for what I should talk about today and although I will only do one of those ideas today, I'm definately going to keep the others in mind for the future. I was a little suprised that so few people decided to participate though, but the ideas for the most part were pretty interesting.

Some of the suggestions ranged from requests of photos of me doing certain things (which is nice but this was about what I'm writing, not my photos or videos) to me talking about various first things I did like first time I had sex, did bondage, did a threesome, etc. There were some other great ideas that in order to do them I would probably have to break them up because like the previous example, each of my first time doing something is probably a whole topic. Another suggestion was for me to talk about my favorite bondage scenes which I think is a great idea, but again I think to do it right each scene would have to be a seperate topic, especially since I don't know that I have a particular favorite since I've had so much fun. Another great idea that would have to be broken up a little is for me to talk about my favorite fetishes. I do hit on this sometimes but I definately should go into more detail about some of them. Some of the ideas that I thought I could cover and actually had planned to talk about at some point were pee play and female ejaculation. The final idea that I got was for me to describe I guess a fantasy of a famous dom/me that I would want to play with and how that would go. I liked this last suggestion but my problem was although I know a lot of men and women who do bondage videos, websites, etc., I'm not sure what really qualifies as famous (is there a Jessica Simpson or Tiger Woods of BDSM?) and I actually have gotten to play with a good bunch of the people you probably see in a lot of the bondage videos. So on this one I think I'd want a little more guidance as to what kinds of people we're talking about. I've already spent a lot of time talking about my "Lana Lang" fantasies and although she isn't really a famous domme (nor a real person as far as I'm concerned but rather a character personified by an actress) I'm not really sure that's where that idea was going. Another great idea that I want to explore at some point is for me to talk about switching roles and a basic overview of what I've enjoyed doing in each role.

There was one idea that I thought I could cover in one entry, which means I could fulfill my promise to explore the idea as much as I could today, and that I actually understood which was for me to talk about how I got into bondage and why I ended up submissive. This one works out well for me too because it gives me a chance to share with you kind of my erotic journey and how I've come to learn a lot more about myself along the way. As for the other ideas, as I said, there are some great ideas and I will be taking some stories and experiences to talk about some of them for sure okey?

So here's how things started. By the way, I'm fully aware that I may be repeating myself a little bit from what I've said previously both in my web log and in the "about Maliia" section of my webcage, but just go with me on this and pretend its new information okey? Lately I've been describing myself as a submissive switch, meaning that although I'm getting more comfortable being dominant in certain circumstances, I spend most of my time being submissive. Of course it wasn't always this way. I started out totally submissive.

Although I didn't realize it at the time, when I was very young, like seven or eight years old, my siblings and friends and I would play various games. You know, cowboys and indians, pirates, prisoners, bank robbers, whatever. The point is, I was always the damsel in distress. The girl who some how ALWAYS managed to get kidnapped and tied up and had to be rescued. Maybe it was because I was a lot smaller than everyone else that I was an easy target, but I always loved the feeling I got when I was in that role. It wasn't sexual or anything and to be honest, I never understood why I felt the way I did until I was much older and I looked back on the experience.

When I was in my teens I of course dated, teased the boys and had a lot of fun, but I also had fun experimenting with a couple of my female friends. You know how young girls can be, we practiced kissing together and I had one friend who I explored her body and she explored mine. We weren't really sure what we were doing and we were only like thirteen or fourteen but it was fun. Anyway, she was my best friend and I told her how much I used to like being tied up so we tried it with her taking some rope and lightly tying my ankles and wrists. I got very excited of course and it didn't take long for me to realize that my excitement was sexual with her. As fun and exciting as kissing her and playing with her was, doing it while tied up was even better. You already know how uncontrollable my pussy is in terms of how wet it gets. Back then I was just starting to discover this. As you know, I grew up on the island of Maui in a little town called Wailuku. There really wasn't much of a fetish scene on Maui and at that age the internet was just starting to get going and we didn't have internet anyway so I didn't have much information about it. All I knew was I liked the feeling I got from being helpless and controlled by someone else.

Sometimes we would go to Oahu to visit other relatives or hang out for a few days. I spent a month living with my grandma at her condo near Waikiki and as a job I started teaching tourists how to surf across from the Hyatt. All along the street that went along the beach called Kalakaua there are these convenience stores called ABC stores. I think there must be at least two on every block. Anyway, a lot of them sell these magazines for the Japanese tourists (in Japanese of course) and I would leaf through them and I noticed that even the ones aimed toward teenage girls would always have drawings of girls in bondage, usually in the middle. It really excited me and even though I didn't read much Japanese, I bought some of the magazines anyway and at night I would play with myself and imagine myself tied up like that. It was very exciting.

Over the next few years I got more successful with surfing and modeling and had a lot of fun but it also meant I got to travel more like to Los Angeles to compete in events and for some photo shoots and stuff. It was there that I found some books about bdsm and I finally learned why I got so turned on by being bound and helpless. I was finally about to put words to my feelings and I realized that it was not only a sexual thing for me but also a part of who and what I was. At first I didn't quite get this because I didn't feel submissive in the way I lived my life. I was a very aggressive surfer and also just very assertive in general. I didn't mind saying what I thought and yes, I had a few "catfights" with girls who tried to intimidate me (it doesn't work because I always stand up for myself and even though I'm really small, I'm a pretty tough girl).

The more I read though (I'm big on reading things when I'm trying to learn something that interests me) the more I realized that I wasn't submissive in general, I was sexually submissive in that I wanted the other person (or people as it would later become) to take control. I didn't want to make the first move or decide what should be done and when. I kept playing with a couple of my female friends and I really liked it. I went through some periods wondering if I was lesbian, but when I realized that I still liked boys just as much, I figured that maybe I was somewhere in between. I've kind of stayed with that in between "bi" label since then.

Anyway, I was almost always the girl getting tied up and that's the role I always liked. Sure, I did the dominant thing some but it worked out well because I liked to be tied and generally the friends I was experimenting with liked to tie me. See, everyone wins.

As you might know, I went to college here in Los Angeles and that was a great time for me to learn and experiment some more. I started playing more with people I knew and trusted and we went to fetish friendly clubs, mostly in West Hollywood. We also went to some of the parties by some of the local organizations like Threshold and while some of the people at the parties were a little creepy, some were cool and I ended up being friends with others who I liked.

So the more I did things, the more I learned about what I liked and didn't like. I experienced whippings, spankings and canings and realized that pain wasn't really my thing. I decided that I liked hot wax and although I got a little pain from having clamps on my nipples or pussy lips, I liked the feeling of having them there. I figured out though that it wasn't a pain thing of course but the humiliation of it. The more I experienced of humiliation, the more I liked it. So naturally puppygirl, ponygirl and other objectification really turned me on and I explored all of that as much as I could. I was open to anything humiliating really and I as much as I liked doing it (or having it done to me) I liked it even more if people were watching like at a party or a club. Its like the fact that I was on display and being shown off and used in public was a real multiplying factor to the whole thing. I also experimented a little with the Gorean play idea but it wasn't my thing. I think I lasted a week as a Gorean style slavegirl. I also messed around with various protocols with different dominants, some male and some female. I discovered that since I'm not really a "full-time" type slavegirl, that being that I'm very sexually submissive but when not engaged in a sexual or fetish activity I can be more assertive, I couldn't really get into a 24/7 type relationship where I was always submissive no matter what. While some of the people who were in the full time relationships or into the protocols were cool, I found out that a lot of them also had very strict ideas about what a submissive should be and do and what a dominant should be and do. They gave me a lot of crap because I wasn't "their" idea of a slavegirl. I was bored frankly by all the devoted flowery oh my master I'm so dedicated to you stuff. That was fine for them but for me by this point, I already knew what I liked it was humiliation, preferably "forced". When I say "forced" what I mean of course is that its consensual as all fetish activities should be but that I'm not actively given a choice. In other words, you discuss what the limits are beforehand of course and if something crosses a line then you have a system to back up from there, but otherwise, I'm not sitting there saying "hey, let me be your puppy pet", instead its like someone says "you're a little puppy pet on a leash, deal with it". So as long as that didn't cross a limit, and I didn't have many limits because I'm pretty open minded, that was fine.

In the course of me being a sexual submissive of course I started keeping my pussy completely hairless and a Mistress "forced" me to get a ring in each of my inner labias. I was very nervous about it at the time and although I love my rings very much and fantasize about getting more, with out that "force" its very difficult for me to motivate myself to go do it.

So that's my story as a submissive, but what about switching? Well, along the way I always did switch a little bit but it was more by circumstance than choice really. As I got more into things and played with people, sometimes there was a slavegirl who wanted to be dominated by both her Master and a cute little Asian girl (namely me), so I would help out a little. It wasn't really my thing when it was like that though because of course the Master was in charge of what happened and either he would want me to stand there and go whip, whip, whip for half an hour or he was more interested in either having his slavegirl sexually satisfy me (which was fine but more of a lesbian sexual thing and not so much about bondage) or me satisfying and teasing her.

Then something interesting happened. I met a girl who said she was a domme so we played a few times and she was very good. We had a lot of fun but then I made a mistake. One day I was feeling particularly assertive with her and just hadn't gotten into a sexually submissive mood before playing, so I turned the tables on her and dominated her. They say that submissives tend to make better dominants than people who have never submitted, well I had plenty of submissive experience for sure. I basically dominated her the way I liked to be dominated and it was similar to how she controlled me. Not too much pain, lots of humiliation and exhibition and always very sexy. This is where the mistake came in. See she enjoyed it so much that from then on she refused to dominate me anymore, she wanted to be my slavegirl. She would call me up begging me and it just got annoying after a while. You would think I would have learned my lesson but no. This happened twice more with girls who I thought were terrific dominants but then the tables got turned and once I dominated them, they never wanted to go back to being anything but submissive to me.

So now I'm very careful about this. On those rare times when I find a fantastic dominant, I make sure they are always dominant to me and when I do choose to be dominant, I find myself a submissive to play with a little. Usually its a female because I'm just more attracted to other submissive girls than submissive boys, though from time to time I have dominated a guy and been okey with it. I can submit to men or women though pretty much either way. When I do dominate, I do it my way (humiliation, servitude, exhibition, not much pain) and if the person isn't into that kind of thing then they're welcome to go find someone else who will do what they want. When I'm in a dominant mood I do enjoy it very much. I feel kind of powerful and sometimes I dress the part and wear thigh high platform boots with a nice black leather or pvc corset (or my latest one which is red with kind of a Chinese looking pattern). Of course, there are many times I go to a party or something thinking I feel one way and just watching what goes on or who is there or what we're talking about will make me change how I feel.

I don't have any rules other than things being safe and consensual really. I know what I like and I know what I won't do. I've had a lot of great experiences and I hope to have many more. I still try to learn a lot of new things because you never know what you'll like until you try things. As much as I enjoy bondage though, lately I've been spending a lot of time learning about finance and investing. I know it doesn't sound like its as much fun, but really I get a lot of pleasure and enjoyment from anything I try that's new and interesting, whether its stocks, bonds or bondage. So that's my story for today, I have lots of other things I can talk about including specific scenes I did as a submissive or a dominant, but for now I think this entry has gone on way too long and you're probably glad its over now anyway.

What Will I Talk About Next? You Decide!

In an effort not only to get out of writing anything interesting today but also to avoid thinking of what to say next time as well, I've decided to try a new thing which is you pick what I'm going to write about when I next update my web log which will probably be on the 4th (Sunday). Just reply in the comments section what you think I should discuss and I'll pick the best idea and go with it. Just to make sure that I get some participation on this, if no one gets involved and tells me what to write, then I won't write anything on that day so if you want to make sure that doesn't happen, be sure to tell me what you want to hear okey?

It's not that I've run out of ideas of what to write or anything, I just thought this would be a fun way to get everyone involved and to make sure that I talk about some things that you might be more interested in while getting to almost completely shirk my web log updating responsibilities for the day. Neat how that works out huh? So anyway, have a great weekend and don't be shy about sharing your thoughts!